YOU COMPLETE US

Everdearest Logan,

You have been in our lives for 6 months (plus 9), and I can't imagine our family without you!  Amidst the transition, tax season, and sicknesses, you've brought out the best in us.  You've strengthened our relationships - with each other and ourselves.  My heart feels like this is going to be your special quality; bringing calm and joy in complicated situations.  It's amazing that someone so little can have such a bit impact...such is the magic of babies.

I loved you from the start.  The first time your smiled at me was a thunderbolt to my heart, and a true forever connection.  You're a serious baby, and we work hard for your smiles! It took almost six months for us to make you laugh, and I'm so happy to have been there to catch it.  Papa and Xavi were imitating skull crawlers and you couldn't stop laughing! Happiness.

You've spent half your life being sick, little baby.  Between bronchiolitis, impetigo, and eczema - you've been a trooper despite being so uncomfortable.  I think we're at the tail end of it, and it's such relief for my mama heart.  There are so many variables, and it's difficult to feel like things are out of my control.  I'm doing the best to care for you, and I hope you're healthy soon!  I'm also aware that it's all relative, and we're lucky that there's nothing life threatening.  It's manageable, and so we will manage it.

I've been lucky to be home with you during these past 6 months.  (I had to go back to work when Xavi was 3 months old, so this extra time is not something I take for granted.) At the same time, you've taken the bottle and gone to others, so that I'm able to transition back to work and also take some time for myself.  You've been right on time since the beginning, while still doing things when you're good and ready.

I write this letter as you're dozing next to me, and every glance at your sleeping face makes my heart grow that much more.

I'm looking forward to what's ahead for us, baby boy.  Take your sweet time to grow at your own pace, because we're enjoying every bit of it. 

Loving you, always.
Mama