good in the hood

My Everdearest Daughters,

We are now into the second trimester, which I consider to be the honeymoon phase.  The nausea and exhaustion have made way for energy and productivity,  Though I still have no appetite (so strange!), I have enough motivation to try eating healthy.  Self care goes a long way, and it usually the first thing to go when I slip into the dark days.

I'm also happy to tell you that those feelings have subsided.  Though I still have moments of self doubt, I don't default to victim mode.  It's more of an internal debate, concerning my daily and life decisions.  And because I don't get lost in my own head, I'm able to communicate my struggles, which means I can be open to support, encouragement and love.  I am grateful, every day, to be surrounded by people who truly care and believe in me. From best friends to people I just met...It's their support that pushes me through the doubt, and helps me believe in myself; and my dreams; and my ability to make those dreams come true.

And it's these flashes of hope that make me think I've made it to the other side of prepartum anxiety/depression.  I can say these positive affirmations and really truly believe in them.  Though a small part of me will always be holding my breath, I move forward with confidence.  I move forward with you, both in my heart for ever more.

Wish sunshine and lovelight,
Mama.