Everdearest babylove

4/17/2016

I've had you in my heart for just under two months. (In my belly, a little bit more). It'll be never be long enough, but then again...is it ever? Our time together has been well spent, and we are lucky to have known you at all.

It was a small miracle that I discovered your presence in my belly so early in the pregnancy. Because of that, we got to see images of your growth. Your little heartbeat, at a delicate 6 weeks.

You brought tremendous happiness in such a short period of time. We cautiously shared the news, and everyone responded with joy and celebration. We all loved you before we ever saw you.

It makes me sad that we'll never get the chance to meet you. That your tiny heart stopped beating, and that you had to leave us so soon.

Thank you for coming into our world when you did. Thank you for giving all of yourself, so that we could find even deeper appreciation for the wonderful things life has to offer. In your presence and lack thereof, we have been showered with love and support. Relationships have been deepened. Feelings have been felt.

You have taught me lessons in patience, compassion,and forgiveness. For others, but also for myself. You've made me stronger, and more kind. You've reminded me to follow my intuition, and given me the power to trust it again. You've allowed me to take time, to take care of myself. It is everything I knew I needed. I needed you.

I'll never be ready to let you go. But today, I'm ready to say goodbye to your physical body. I promise not remember you as my miscarriage, but as my baby love. You've made as deep of an impact as anyone else, and I can already feel the shift in my life - for the better. It's all for a reason, and my new reason is you.

With closure and gratitude,
Your loving mamma, always.

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3 Comments

Thuy

4/19/2016 01:37:21 pm

Love you Thuy-Lien, this is so beautiful , a really heartfelt way to live through this experience. Thank you for sharing with us, xox

Zee W.

4/19/2016 06:38:47 pm

Oh dear sweet momma! I am weeping with you and wrapping my arms around you. I do not know who you are but I truly am thinking of you and praying for you. Your words speak so beautifully of a mother's love whose heart aches for her child who left this world too soon, not having the chance to see his/her face moreso showering him/her with your love that overflows. I weep with you as my heart has just been broken (again) just a little over 2 weeks ago after losing our baby at 8 weeks of my pregnancy. Like you, we found out we were expecting our precious little Elijah (yes, we decided to name him) early on however, at 7 weeks things started to go dim and a week later, we lost him. I am happy that you are declaring your baby wasn't just a miscarriage. You proudly declared to the world your love for your sweet little baby that will forever be part of you, part of your family. I pray that your broken heart continues to inspire to do great things. May you stay to be the strong woman and mother that you are so others may be inspired and know that there is hope even in their darkest times. I am holding you close to my heart and know you have someone somewhere who's holding your hand through all this.

James

4/20/2016 09:12:02 am

A friend of mine went through a miscarriage and decided to open up about it as well.You are both very brave and kind to open up for the support of others.
http://www.motherlucker.com/things-i-wish-i-knew/miscarriages-happen-and-they-suck-1

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